Welcome young writers, heartbreak experts and savants of sadness. If you’re looking for pain, you’re on the right poetry website.

 

In high school, it all made sense. I had the perfect group of friends, an amazing boyfriend and a college career mapped out and lined up. But along with all of the lessons about life that they never getting around to teaching you in high school, my teachers didn’t tell me what would happen when I lost it all.

 

My freshman year of college consisted of heartbreak and addiction along with the cognitive dissonance that many feel when their lives truly begin. When my relationships fell apart, the only vice which saved me was my writing. Writing was there for me at my lowest points, keeping me company in the behavioral health facility that I stayed in when I attempted to kill myself a day after my first year of college had ended.

 

Being physically alone is hard, but the all-consuming feeling of loneliness is much more painful. It made me aware of my humanity. I could feel every vein in my body, could feel the reverberation in my lonely bones.

 

Through it all, through the suffering and suicide attempts, poetry was there. It taught me to see the life in my sidewalk cracks.

 

As comforting as writing is to me, it doesn’t keep me warm at night. I apologize in advance if it doesn’t keep you warm either. Writing is my greatest release. If high school taught me anything, it was that we can find happiness in ourselves that has nothing to do with the people around us, a truth that my English major in college has solidified.

 

All of my poetry is real and painful. These posts are filled with my mental health struggle and thoughts of suicide. My goal is to provide you with relatable poetry generated from pain and the struggle of living every day, no matter your mental or marital status.

 

That’s the reason I began this page; it was not to get praise, but to show people like you that you are not alone and that words will stick with you long after the people who said them are gone. If you like my page and poems, I implore you to give me more than feedback; share my work and share writings of your own.

 

Poem collaborations are my passion, and sharing your poetry to spread the love is my top priority.  If you are a young poet from the St. Louis area, like me, or find yourself looking to share poetry like mine, please feel free to subscribe and help share our lonely bones with the world.